I think I got a 95 on my History paper on Boethius.
I hope so.
Mony, you are a divine poet, come kiss me in the sleeping-car, my soul is fuckatative"
I think I got a 95 on my History paper on Boethius.
I hope so.
I hung out with a bunch of white guys tonight. They all went to a catholic private high school and I felt super out of place.
I watched a documentary on Rwanda the other night.
I knew that sadness would be an obvious feeling but more than anything I was angry.
Angry at myself. Angry at the US. Angry at our society. Just angry at the world.
If made me feel like I don’t want to live a mediocre life. I don’t want to just finish school, get a job and just live the daily grind. Even if I end up having a good job with good benefits and I’m comfortable, no. I want to be part of something bigger. Something that changes lives even in my own community. Doesn’t have to be world peace, just something that makes me feel like I’m contributing to the progress of human dignity.
This whole Black Friday deal this year is just disgusting. I can’t stand it. I’m judging everyone who went out and bought shit today. Sorry. I can’t help it. Philosophically it’s wrong. It doesn’t bring any balance. It doesn’t change your life. Fighting over tv’s or towels won’t change your life…unless you go to jail.
Barnes and noble isn’t a big Black Friday target so I don’t expect too much craziness tomorrow. I hope I don’t get run over in the parking lot. Last year I couldn’t even cross the fucking lot because people are assholes. One day it took me 10 minutes for cars to let me cross into work. I’m just like, really? No, really?
And I swear, I’m snapping at the first asshole to cross me. Don’t care anymore. Snapping at the first person who tells me “well, the other person honored the coupon, they did it for me” I’m gonna guilt trip the shit out of them. I can’t wait to use this line:
"Oh do you remember who it was? Oh great, he/she is here today. Thanks for letting me know. I will forward that information to my manager. We’ve been repeatedly told not to enter coupons manually and this person has been disciplined many times about it. Company theft is no joke. Thank you :)"
Hehe. Is it healthy to feel this way about a retail fantasy??? Haha. I’m not really going to snitch on my co workers, I just hate people who tell me this shit. It’s happened to me before as a customer. I do say, I’ve done it before but I don’t expect it to be honored if it just can’t. I’m just like “oh really? Aw man. That sucks, I did t before? Oh okay” and I move on.
how do i get up in this friendship
Lil beh, look !
Highly doubt Kanye laughed. He’s so into himself and so devoid of humor. He’ll probably say that a black man can’t be taken seriously in the music world.
I mean, he doesn’t even know that his video is hilarious. He probably thought he was being deep and original. Sorry Kanye, get over yourself.
Fuck you work, I hate you. Can’t stand you. I hate to say it or feel it but I’ve developed such an ego. “I’m better than this” type of feeling. I hate feeling that way because its such a snob feeling and that’s not cool but I can’t stand them anymore.
This last interview is like my last hope. I’ve interviewed for upland like 3 times. This past time was my third time. The last 2 times I was supposed to get hired but it was out their control so I just feel like it would make sense to hire me this time.
I want to work at a place where I know it’s relevant to my career path. I can’t stand retail. Nobody can. I want to ride my bike to work. I want to have time to go to the gym or take a yoga class and still have time to do my homework. These things are important to me. Call me privileged or whiny but this is important to my life and my happiness. Retail doesn’t allow for any of that. Managers are usually just people that gave up, not all managers at all stores but if that’s the end or it for them, I can’t help but feel sad. But I know I shouldn’t feel that way because I shouldn’t judge their life but it makes me mad when they’re incompetent people.
But I know I need to work on handling stress and school better. I can’t help but just break down sometimes. I just put this immense pressure on myself to be one of the best and sometimes I don’t need to be the best, I just need to get it done. Having a job that I’m not into anymore just adds more depression. Why should I even care if they don’t recognize the work I do for them? The only reason to care is for a pay check. Other than that, there is no other reason.
I’m like Michael Scott on pretzel day when I have to write 2 papers and work on a project.
I don;t know how to text flirt :/
I know how to sext but I can’t get into that right away O_O haha.
I’m a lady :) but I don’t know how to flirt in person or in writing.
jk, I am so sorry. So sorry I said that
I don’t get “boys” they give you the cold shoulder and ignore you and when you do the same to them, they start talking to you again and go out of their way to be nice to you.
Is that what it is? Just being nice?
Should I just stop having crushes on guys who are 24 and younger? Yeah. Probably. Mainly, I should just stop thinking about it so much.
An old co worker came in today and we were totally chatting it up. I secretly think he’s a womanizer and would totally sleep with whomever. But he’s nice and I can tell his game but I’m immune. He’s just one of those guys that flirts with anyone. Anyway, I’d probably make out with him if I were drunk. Haha. Not that he’s ugly, I’m just saying, he’s one of thoooose guys. Ok, so anyway he says “hey we should hang out” and I say “yeah totally, here’s my number”
How fucking easy was that? Where are those guys in my life? Just guys who are comfortable with themselves. Guys, people, who if they enjoy a conversation with someone, they make it known. Doesn’t mean it’s romantic. Just cause someone from the opposite sex wants to hang out doesn’t automatically mean they want to get in your pants or have your babies.
I wanted to hang out with my work crush. I’ve hung out with lots of co workers. Some I’ve had crushes, some I haven’t. It’s not like I asked the guy to be my freaking husband. *rolls eyes*
Note to self: I’m still awesome.
I was gonna take 16 units this winter quarter but I have a feeling I’ll have second job ( :D?) Maybe. I’ll have 12 units, potentially 2 jobs and be an editor on the History Journal (uuUuuu) so I probably shouldn’t overwhelm myself. Plus, for two of history courses I’m gonna have to read 5 books for each….yeah I’m gonna die.
I can barely keep as it is
I don’t understand the mentality of groups. Whatever, Marcus Aurelius would say to pay no mind and let my slumber rest my body for a whole new day where the beauty of life and being alive reigns supreme.
Unless I get shot up my weirdo co worker cause my management didn’t fire him. So for the record, if I’m dead tomorrow, you heard it here first. Fuck that guy.